I’ve been here before

Standing on the ledge

I look up not down

Even in my madness, I am afraid

High, in my mind and reality

I open my arms

I open them up to destruction

The light hits the rain

Glistening in the darkness

My face feels the refreshing taste of hate

Hate of myself and of life in general


Why bother…

Darkness wraps around me

Like a baby’s blanket, cocooning me

The familiarity frightening

Yet makes me feel complete

The rain rolls over me

Awakening my soul

Drenching my pain

Making me forget


I look down, dread crowds my heart

What am I doing here?

I step back, I step down

I’ve been here before